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Introspection

Friday, May 27th, 2016

Today may be Friday and a lot of y’all are probably getting ready for a holiday weekend. First and foremost, be safe this weekend. Second, please don’t forget what the meaning of the weekend is truly about. Remembering those who lost their lives defending this country.

I’m a private person by nature, just who I am. However, I’ve been feeling sorry for myself. That’s pretty much the bottom line. And I’m owning it and refusing to do such any longer.

slide38Our lives are full of ups and downs, it’s just a fact. I wasn’t where I wanted to be and I’ve been allowing that fact to get me down. I shouldn’t complain, I’m right where I am supposed to be right now. I may not be aware of the reason, but He doesn’t always give me the answers merely because I want them. So, while I wait to get to where I am to end up, I’m planning for the future, checking out the business I want and lining things up. I’m healthy, DH is healthy, the animals are fine as well, (even the cat for those of you who think I only care about the dogs) so we’re good.

There are two speeds, the speed we want it to happen and the speed it does happen. I take from this I must have more patience (not something I’ve been good at) and wait. It will happen.

slide21 slide46Life is short.

Love hard.

Love well.

Love true.

Find your happiness and hold onto it.

Mine is near and within touching distance, I just have to wait for the right moment for the connection to be made.

In case you forgot since the start. Have a safe and wonderful Memorial Day. To those serving (active or family) my many heartfelt thanks for all your sacrifices. To those we’ve lost: You are in my heart and I thank you for what you’ve done. I will never forget.

Fair Winds and Following Seas

Giving back

Friday, April 22nd, 2016

Most of y’all know that I have three therapy dogs. My eldest Borzoi are all CGC/CGCA titled and are therapy dogs. Typically when I go out, I have cards with the organization and my direct number on them if they wish to give me a call for another visit if I’m not planning on being back there for a while. We have a lot of different places we go (from hospitals to hospices, schools, 4-h events, libraries, and more) and while I try to keep everything even, doesn’t always work that way.

Anyway…

I was at home yesterday, dogs were playing outside (or in using the downstairs as a track) when I got a call from a friend who does a lot of teaching of pet safety classes (we also do those and Canine Ambassador things) and she needed another large dog since her planned one had dropped out last minute. Hadn’t expected to head off to do anything like that for the day before the “other job” especially given the word count needed for the day. But, it’s a good thing for us to get out and do this, so I closed out my writing and got ready for what I knew would be a few hour stint with different groups of kids learning about the proper care and way to approach dogs.

I took my Nina nina1who is the oldest and my most solid, doesn’t care if the visit is 15 minutes or we’re there for 7 hours, she’s fine either way. The others are good but she’s the best. So we were there for a little over three hours. As they were getting pictures taken with the children (I don’t take any) I got a call from a father to another person I’d been to visit a few times. A young girl battling cancer, Tracey.

In a shaky voice he asked me if I could come with Opal (who she loved to see) and do a visit this day. Deep down, I knew it wasn’t going to be good news but I told him I would be there as soon as I picked up Opal. Made the switch and headed to hospital where we needed to be.

Opal is the biggest of my girls around 75-80lbs and the child we were visiting is barely at 35lbs given how the cancer has ravaged her body. I’d not seen Tracey in a while and my heart broke in seconds after walking in the door. I knew this wasn’t going to be an easy visit but the chances of me ever seeing her again was maybe 2%.

Dogs know and sense more than most give them credit for. Opal adjusts her energy level to those she’s around and she had never been more gentle than when she lay beside Tracey. I did my best to blend in the background why the small family, with Opal, shared in some of their last moments together. They got some pictures and I hope with all my heart they will help this couple remember their daughter when she’s no longer with us but up with the angels.

Opal dm_267462was not her usual happy self when we left and I knew she felt the sorrow that had overflowed in the room. Even this morning, she’s sad but she ate and played a bit before coming back to lie beside me.

That visit was emotionally draining to me. I cannot image the pain that a parent must experience knowing you will bury your own child.

So, while I may have been exhausted and hadn’t gotten any writing done (to speak of) being able to help ease what tragedy they were living was worth it. I don’t do as much volunteer work as I should, or could, and I was down for the rest of the day as well, but I will never forget the smile on Tracey’s face when she opened her eyes and found Opal walking toward her. For a brief moment in time there, she was a five year old, not a cancer patient.

I know it seems much of the time we don’t have any extra time to help others but if you do then you understand. It touches you to do this. Not saying you need to get a dog and do therapy work but something. Anything. Help lessen the suffering in any way you can. Small gestures go a long way.

Tracey passed away during the night and has gone home to God. She will be missed but He needed her more.

Interesting days

Friday, February 26th, 2016
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Hopefully today will be a good one. At least the night at work didn’t involve them sending me into a tiny room because of tornado warnings. I’d been pushed into them three times two nights ago, didn’t make for a good night’s rest. Last night I crashed. Felt good.

Today is all about cleaning. I’m tackling the kitchen, so going to crank up the music, and get to it. I have a few cases of canned dog food to put on the shelf as well, so will take those out of the boxes and start getting my house back in order.

What’s everyone reading this weekend? My selection will be posted tomorrow. I’ve been totally enjoying my reading this month, wonderfully talented authors.

Have a wonderful Friday!!

Some days are harder than others

Wednesday, February 24th, 2016

Today was one of those days.

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Where you wake up with nightmares, or from them. Either way, it sets the tone for the rest of your day. I don’t have them often but like a lot of people, I do have them. Some bad experiences in the past, no matter how much you move on, no matter how much you grow and change can come back and make you feel terrified.

It took me a while to realize the scream was my own and when I did, I found myself immediately searching for Clarke, my male GSD who had always been my rock. Clarke’s been gone for eight years and I am still looking for the right shepherd to bring into the house next. Needless to say, he wasn’t there.

However, three of my four zoi were there, surrounding me. protecting me. The pup still is crated at night. But Nina, Lily, and Opal were there. One on each side and one in front between me and the door. There are moments in time where you get to see how amazing animals truly are and for me, this was one of them. Those three are all therapy dogs and have this uncanny way of calming people down, others, and I guess I just look at it as, well, it’s what they do. They’re just that way. Good dogs, great dogs who have no problem offering comfort. I usually get the goofy side, the prankster side. The tug of war, let’s do a squeakerectomy and shower the entire floor with the stuffing side. The lets lay in the mud then run through the house side. Chase the cat up and down the stairs, just because it would be fun.

I’m the leader, their alpha, but it’s always nice to remember that they have my back on days when I don’t much feel like the alpha, when my life is reverted back to the panicked scared 13 yo girl. These dogs are family, they make me smile, laugh, and have an entire other outlook on life. I thank the breeders wh0 gave me a chance with their dogs, I thank my friends in the dog world who are always there to answer questions and welcomed me whether it was for racing, showing, or whatever. I thank my dog trainer who never let me give up but reminded me I could do whatever I wanted with a zoi, it may take a bit more work but it could be done.

And last but never least, to all the dogs I have had in the past who taught me how blessed one is to be loved unconditionally no matter what type of day it was. They always have a wag and a cuddle ready.

Now that I have gotten that out, guess I should get some writing done. Have a wonderful day and never let anyone tell you an animal is just a pet. They are so much more than that.

Typical me

Saturday, January 9th, 2016

So, I come home around 0200 from work and after I let out the pup, I’m in the kitchen refilling my water bottles and whatnot. I am getting ready for the next workday. I see a small black shape by the edge of the kitchen (in my house that generally means the cat. He’s the smallest in a house of zoi) and so begin to talk to him. The only light on is a faint one in a diff room, and my glasses are off. Darkened room, no glasses, tired eyes do not a good mixture make.

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So there I am, holding a one-sided conversation with my cat only to discover when I walk that way to the door to let pup back in, it wasn’t the cat. My dogs have a five foot long squeaker filled snake. Yep, that’s what I was talking to. And to be completely honest, I probably wouldn’t have known other than Dageus came up on the other side of me while I walked toward it (yes, still talking) and meowed at me. We won’t go into what his expression said…cat’s lucky I love him so much, is all I can say.

I’m sure the snake didn’t care one bit about the conversation but, I had to point it out for those who think I don’t care about my cat like I do my dogs. I tried to have a conversation with me, just…well, it is me and therefore that means, anything can (and usually does) happen.

Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 25th, 2015
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Merry Christmas to all y’all. For those who don’t celebrate Christmas, Happy Holidays. Whatever you celebrate, from my family to yours we wish you the grandest of holiday’s. May you be able to be with loved ones and have a fantastic time.

Please don’t forget those who are unable to be with their loved ones this holiday, the men and women who serve their country.

It’s not really feeling like Christmas here, high 70’s, bright sunny sky. So we have the house open and a breeze blowing through. I don’t need snow but I didn’t exactly want balmy weather either. Regardless, the day will be awesome. The dogs have their toys so the house is full of squeakers sounding off and tug of war games between them. I suspect soon, I’ll be picking up the stuffing that explodes from the toys.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have a small word count to go hit then finish up preps for the food this afternoon.

Again, May the blessings of the season be upon you. Have a wonderful day!

Insomnia strikes again

Friday, December 11th, 2015
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Happy early morning. I should be sleeping but…insomnia has struck again. The house is quiet and I wish I was overlooking a view like in the image above. Alas, I’m not. I have candles burning and my iPod in, giving me some music. So, I’m catching up on some much needed email cleaning, blog prep, writing, and the like. Hopefully I’ll be able to get a few hours of shut eye before I have to head back into work. I did manage to get some prizes sent off to the winners, which was nice to take care of. I’m in the process of uploading A Knight’s Vow to retailers, so that will be available before to long. I’ll be having a few rereleases coming out next year that have been sitting around and needing to be put out. More to come on those in my upcoming newsletters. If you’ve not joined and would care to be kept abreast of what’s going on, please go here and sign up.

Is everyone ready for the holidays? Me? Not so much. I’ve got one more thing to get for my niece and I do hope she enjoys it. Wish we were closer that I could spend the holidays with family. Since we’re clear across the country, it will be DH and myself this year. And the pups. (Dageus too… can’t forget the cat 🙂 )

Well, I reckon I’d best get back to writing. I’ve come up with two of the “untitled” stories I have coming out in 2016. So, yay me. If you know me, that’s a big thing for me to have the titles like this. Usually I have to think on them for a long while. Kind of like a plotter working on a story, that’s me and a title. But, I got two done. Well, three really, so I guess that’s even better. So, off I go. #newcontemporaryromance #romanticsuspense

Have a wonderful Friday and a stellar weekend.

Sunday Reflections

Sunday, December 6th, 2015

IMG_4038As we near the end of 2015 I’ve been doing a lot of thinking over the past year. The ups, the downs, the…who knows whats. I’m not complaining by any means for it’s life and I take it as it comes.

Today, after walking the pups, eating, and talking on the phone with a good friend, I got to work cleaning and putting stuff into the donation pile. My winter cleaning that I do every year. I came across some of my grandmother’s old recipes and remembered that I was going to compile a cookbook of them. Just another of the many projects I didn’t get finished this year. So, I put it in my calendar for 2016. There are a few more quilts I want to do next year as well. I cleaned out a lot of jewelry today, stuff I just don’t wear and while doing that I found the sapphire ring and pendant DH brought me back from one of his deployment cruises to Thailand. That alone made me thrilled even more so when it fit better than when he brought it back for me.

I located an old photo album of my GSD Clarke. From two days old up until I put him down. So, had a nice long cry there. I still miss him and he’s been gone over seven years now. Some days the pain is just as fresh as it was that day he crossed the Rainbow Bridge. He was my heart dog. Although I will say my Nina has done a damn good job of taking his place. She was born in May and I lost him about two months later as if he knew she was here now and he could leave me protected. Nina grew up with Clarke’s relative but she took on so many traits of his. So many. She even looks at me like he did, anticipates what I’m going to ask her to do and will pretty much do anything I ask. She’s even learned how to search a house, as my shepherds did. Something I found out when I came downstairs to find the front door wide open. I wear a pendant of a GSD around my neck and it helps me feel closer to Clarke.

We recently brought home one of Nina’s pups and I would be lying if I wasn’t scared that she was going to leave me soon. I recently had a friend lose a Borzoi who is three years younger. Just how my mind works, I know it doesn’t mean anything just, more thoughts.

As I was folding up the quilt I’m donating I was contemplating on what is to come. All the adventures, changes, and new challenges that 2016 will bring. I’ve been blessed, I can say that without the slightest bit of hesitation. I wish all of you a wonderful remainder of 2015 and nothing but a prosperous 2016.

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have some projects of the writing sort to get working on.

Happy Sunday,

~Aliyah

Happy Saturday

Saturday, December 5th, 2015

A bend in the road is not the end of the road… unless you fail to make the turn.

~ Unknown

It’s Wednesday

Wednesday, December 2nd, 2015

Hope everyone’s month has started off well. Busy at this end of life, trying to figure out all of 2016’s writing, publishing, and trips along with time for dog adventures. So, I’m off to get some more word count done. I’ll just leave you with this:

When you are content to be simply yourself and don’t compare or compete, everybody will respect you.

~Lao Tzu